Education Building

Since I am an Elementary Education major, I get to spend a lot of time with the future teachers of Alabama. Most, well no ALL, of my classes are in the Education Building. Right now I'm learning not only how to manage my classroom, but also how to teach Math, Science, and Social Studies.

One of the things that always gets to me is how cute everything has to be. We don't just use binders to hold all of our power points, we use cute binders, that if not already decorate, have personal embellishments on them. You can't simply label you binder "Math." It has to be "ED 445: Instructional Methods of Teaching Math," printed with the cutest, curliest font and some sort of clip art at the bottom of the page. Where would our presentations be with out crayon embellishments? What about our rulers and apples? Could a bulletin board function without those?

Selfishness

“The one who loves the least, controls the relationship.”

-Dr. Robert Anthony

I have found this quote to be particularly true this past month. Friends that don't care about you, but pretend to, are the ones that you spend your most time on. It's not usually time pleasantly spent, nor well spent, but it's there none the less. They are the ones that control your mood, how easily adjitated you get, and whether or not you'll have a good day. It's that hold that you can't explain, but can't stop.

So what do you do when you don't want to be controlled by that person??? Well, you can't make anyone love you any more then they do. (How many heartbroken people wish it weren't true!) So I guess there has to be a decision, to either put up with it or let the person go.

.....letting go is not so fun or romantic as it sounds....

How Much Change????

Every semester of school I always complain about how everything changes. Each semester I seem to have new group of what I would call core friends, new classes with new people, and a new place to live. It seems as though no matter how hard I try, things always change on me. So this past weekend I went home and tried to realize the things that stayed consistant. I still talk regularly, in person, with two of my friends and have some of the same teachers. I know that I'll have in school observations later in the semester, and that my family will still be at home, even if Alashia isn't.

Having found the comfort in this and being able to meet up with friends from last semester, I was able to really think about my Chrsitmas break and whether or not I enjoyed going to NYC. I realized that I loved it! I loved being in a city, navigating the trains and planning the quickest routes. I loved being in the hustle and bustle of a city. I loved the fact that random people don't expect me to talk to them and that I didn't have to make eye contact with anyone I didn't want to. Without even trying, the thought ran through my head that I am ready to move out of small town Montevallo and into a bigger city, with a more diverse number of people. I want a Wawa and REAL soft pretzels every now and then. I found myself asking for a real change, a life changing change.

Funny how the thing I complain about and brag about to people the most can be something I dread and desire all at the same time. I wish I weren't such a complicated girl sometimes and could make up my own mind!