How Much Change????

Every semester of school I always complain about how everything changes. Each semester I seem to have new group of what I would call core friends, new classes with new people, and a new place to live. It seems as though no matter how hard I try, things always change on me. So this past weekend I went home and tried to realize the things that stayed consistant. I still talk regularly, in person, with two of my friends and have some of the same teachers. I know that I'll have in school observations later in the semester, and that my family will still be at home, even if Alashia isn't.

Having found the comfort in this and being able to meet up with friends from last semester, I was able to really think about my Chrsitmas break and whether or not I enjoyed going to NYC. I realized that I loved it! I loved being in a city, navigating the trains and planning the quickest routes. I loved being in the hustle and bustle of a city. I loved the fact that random people don't expect me to talk to them and that I didn't have to make eye contact with anyone I didn't want to. Without even trying, the thought ran through my head that I am ready to move out of small town Montevallo and into a bigger city, with a more diverse number of people. I want a Wawa and REAL soft pretzels every now and then. I found myself asking for a real change, a life changing change.

Funny how the thing I complain about and brag about to people the most can be something I dread and desire all at the same time. I wish I weren't such a complicated girl sometimes and could make up my own mind!